Nov 20, 2011

Strength of our own choosing

I relish in my own strength these days. There are things I can achieve, there are people who I can help in infinite ways, there are avenues that are open to me when other avenues crash around me, and there is family that will always love despite not understanding me. On the flip side there are things I can't achieve, people who I will never understand or are meant to help, there are avenues that are blocked for reasons while others lay waiting in expectancy, and there are expectations unmet.

The strength lies in knowing that there are limitations and there are areas of achievements, that life lays in waiting anticipation of the talents that we all possess, that I now have people who stand behind me despite any odds, that I now stand behind myself even if it means walking away from situations that lack compromise, are hurtful, or are unproductive. There are things, people, situations that need to work themselves out.. even if it means hitting bottom and trying to recover while swimming upstream gasping. I will be waiting with outstretched hands when the timing is right... I promise for I am stronger than most give me credit... my strength lies in silence, warmth, emotions...

There are treasures in all of us..

seek and we will find

love to all

Oct 28, 2011

Cold on the outside, warmth surrounding my heart

I wish I could release the warmth from my heart into the veins of my loved ones.. a warmth that would fill their very senses with love and courage to take on any task that is put in front of their spirits. I would release the love into their very souls so that they would know they are never alone in any situation, that anything is possible when you are held in high esteem and wonder, and that there is no stronger thread in our lives than the love of family and friends who are always there for you no matter the situation.

Stride forth into the world believing and knowing that you can decipher anything that is laid before your feet. You and you alone can make sense of the journey that has been laid out before those marvelous feet of yours.

Fears, anger, sadness would disintegrate ... dissolving .. away

through love

through warmth

When it is cold outside....

Oct 1, 2011

ralph waldo emerson

To laugh often and much,
to win the respect
of intelligent people
and the affection of children
to earn the appreciation
of honest critics
and endure the betrayal
of false friends;
to apprecitate beauty,
to find the best in others,
to leave the world a bit better
whether by a healthy child,
a garden patch,
or a redeemed social condition,
to know even one life
has breathed easier
because you lived
This is to have succeeded."

Sep 28, 2011


I know life is full of see saws, ups and downs, giggles and tears, and then.... blah...hmm, what is up with that

It shouldn't be... there should just be a wonderful silence, meditative moments, blessings stirred

but all of a sudden your body, spirit, mind goes blank... and blah

When one consumes enough blah... retaliation pops up saying no more... blah

Then remarkably we bounce back... whoopee!!

No more blah... joyous laughter, tears wake up our heads with images that cause our blahs to melt away... stirring our hearts

Oh life is recklessly wonderful..

and yes sometimes... blah

Sep 8, 2011


Feathers drift into my pathway
reminding me that my loved ones are in my presense... they know
Feathers are gifts from those loved ones.. feathers and heart rocks
You loved me, you guided me... now the angels watch over you
you are held in arms of gold
no longer pain in your heart for being quite human
and the joy ... oh the sweet joy of memories with us.. they will illuminate your very soul
as you dance with angels

I can feel your touch
sense when I chuckle that you laugh with me
when I drink your favorite drink I know you share it with me
thank you for the feathers that drift my way.....
you are an angel

Aug 19, 2011


I shut my eyes and leaned into life ... to my discovery ... you appeared

beautiful words escaped through your lips ... leaving me bedazzled and elated..

Dare I dream ,

has he arrived.... I was waiting for so long

Patience is not my virtue dear sir.. but playfully you finally found me...

I knew that dreams and play flowed hand in hand

I can begin to breathe

to play

to soak up all that has been blessed upon my head..

No more hide and seek

just word play

imagination at play

playful intentions of ... love

Aug 18, 2011

Connections to the land

Connections run deep in this land that surrounds us.. I have come to know that there is a connection whose thread runs deeply within us.. to know the cracks, the crevices, the coulees, the desert, the saddles, the islands, the rimlands... the list goes on into beautiful on.. with words that flow freely from our lips. As the words flow freely our legs search to flow freely wandering this beautiful land that surrounds us, to know the land as we know our lovers body.

We can only percieve it through human eyes who seek to understand its constant changing patterns.

We have tried in vain to own it, to consume it, to wander it, to fear it, to absolutely love it and in the end to feed it with our bodies and souls.

I do not worry for we are small morsels trying our best to connect, to flow with the land...

it ultimately owns us

Jul 28, 2011

wrapping my senses around energy

I seek to understand the force of energy that surrounds us all..

Does it exist.. there is no doubt in my mind.. on any given day we are surrounded by brilliant moments of recollection, of people who walk into our open doorways.. who we thought of briefly before that illuminated moment

Thoughts, words, actions, enter our sight, our smell, our hands..

bringing forth memories and sensations that are inconceivable.. I knew you before you walked into my heart.

I can barely breath when I think of you

I can only shut my eyes and see deep set eyes filled with wisdom about every part of me'


I have been blessed
I have been discovered
I have been revealed in splendor
I am infatuated with the wonder of it all
I am blessed with so much
wonderous shining intimate rays
.... dare words express
blessed creature
..... you are

Jul 14, 2011

Coffee House zen

When presented with the opportunity.. life works in wonderous ways. Energy that flows through a place of healing is a unique energy that stimulates, hugs, provides warmth, brings about good talk and laughter.... need I say more.

Little towns have so much to share, so much to give, so much to talk about...

belief in dreams


The stories that flow from one to another ...amazing stories of triumph, healing, crashed dreams and hopes restored.

Each person is so worthy that walks through the door of this healing place, this healing place of love.

May all little towns be blessed with a place of healing for all that seek shelter.

Apr 20, 2011


We are all searching for acceptance

We all suffer the human condition ... the search for unconditional love

Our children look to us for acceptance

Our children suffer the human condition... needing unconditional love

The world is searching for acceptance

The world needs.. unconditional love

When will we all open our eyes and realize that each human being is a speck of brilliance, a morsel of complete beautiful creation, a wonder of nature and God to behold

We should not scorn about individuality, we should not belittle because of differences in dress, opinion, or other such matters... unconditional love

Acceptance... think of the possibilities

Begin with you

I will begin with me


Apr 16, 2011


As I walk forward I often find that it is difficult to focus... for there is so much to see around us

There is so much to take in, so many questions that leap up in the mind...

This is why I search for quiet, for moments in the now...

Focus on the tasks at hand

Focus on the dreams that play out every night

Focus on the pathway for though it is illuminated.. it will not happen naturally without your help

As I leap forward, I am often times in fear... fear that I might fail... fear that the dream will not ....

Focus, what am I so afraid of ... what could possibly go wrong that would be sooo bad

Focus, let the fear become brilliant radiant heat which would burst into colors all around

Focus, allowing your dreams to happen

As I run full bore into the future... I am thankful for so much love, so much help... so much guidance...

Focus on the love that surrounds me, surrounds all of us

Focus on returning that love so that growth happens in all of us..

Focus on a world where love blooms, where we can be ourselves without qualm, where our children can focus

and bloom


Apr 4, 2011

New Chapters

Everyday.. change chapters unfold..nothing lasts forever

Where life has taken me, I have learned how to let go, with tears yes, but definetly to let go

Those tendrils, those vibrating strings, those long silky fibers cling to my heart causing a great deal of flooding to occur

Higher ground is searched for, as I attempt to escape lonely patterns that shadow my heart

There are tasks, opportunities calling my name

my soul vibrates with decisions and the vise often tightens causing a shortening of breath

Roots keep me grounded as I feel myself slipping

branches support my carcas as I lean into the root system for support...

The need to be cradled is deep

To be supported

To be held


Once again

Mar 14, 2011

Sad Reality

Having watched the movie "Brothers" last night, my mind sadly reflects on the damage that our society heaps onto our soldiers and those in battle... There is no getting around the mental and physical damage that is done during times of war. Are we really able to create killing machines out of a human soul who is so capable of deep love, who is capable of reflecting on life, who is capable of miraculous imagination beyond our own reasoning.

Humans are miracles put upon this earth to solve problems, to invent new ways, to dig deeper into physical, spiritual realms where love is prominent. I forever remain the optimist ... cheering for the vast population, pushing for new ways to create, to invent, to produce jobs, good will towards humans, and to solve life's problems through our brain power...

It is time for suffering in the name of materialism and greed to end (or which ever lable the current power seeks to name the conditions).

Love to all, peace to all, creation to all

Feb 27, 2011


When one stays in one spot expecting something to happen... you become so self-involved that the view becomes blurred and opportunities are not seen.

Even when the opportunities knock loudly the sound of loneliness and invasion of the blues blocks the air waves that try to enter your head...

When one's vision clears up and swift kicks to the head (ass, etc.) are delivered blessings arise...

Branching begins from the trunk of one's body...

One begins to see possibilities within the talents of your own soul

Talents of which no one else possesses in the same exact way

Branches twist forth revealing new connections, blooms of hope and love...

The tree begins to recognize that no one is alone in this complicated world of illusions

When one allows the branches to reach out to the joyous sky, to reach out to other branches of different worlds, to reach out for all opportunities that arise...

Joy fills the soul,

Possibilities bloom

Branch forth




Feb 26, 2011

Peace of Mind

Peace of Mind.. a moment when we leave this world behind

Knowing full well reality is created within boundaries floating around the mind

Peace of Mind... standing still in space.. no thought of time or things rushing by us

Knowing full well there is nothing that can penetrate the bubble where we exist unless we choose

Peace of Mind... a sense, a whisper, hints of uplifting sensations that fill us

Knowing full well that this brief moment will fill us with such tender emotion that we dare share

Peace of Mind... there is only these brief moments in life where we make the best of it

Knowing full well that this too will pass, and onward (perhaps upward) we will travel to other places

Peace of Mind

Feb 23, 2011

Morning Light

We are all as different as the morning light

That spills forth in the daylight hours over my trundle bed

Each day provides new light, new hopes, new horizons

Each person we meet in our life provides new light, new hopes, and new horizons

I can no longer go back to my old ways of fulfilling the needs of a small few that live in my space

I can no longer push back my dreams and desires

I can now go eagerly forward .. at times scared.. at times reaching out for a hand

I can now go eagerly forward knowing I have given my best and that there is more to come

What will the morning light bring


Bursting in of life and plans


Explosions of laughter and excitement for the day


But each morning light, just as each person, will enter in a different manner

holding new promises for each moment

Boredom... I know not this word

Have been baffled by it most of my life

Morning Light

New hopes

Bring forth the plan

Feb 22, 2011

A Gentle Thank you

A Gentle Thank you to my blessed ones
This search for the right pathway has taken me into some wonderful lives
And some lives that have always been beside me
inside of me :)
and before me without me even knowing'
As I enter, but yet, another realm of new adventure
I want to take the time to say thank you for your support
Beliefs in me and around me
I will be forever grateful
Annie's World

Finding our Way

Perhaps we are meant to be alone..

The Search is fun, exhilirating, full of anxiety...

I am set in my way... Ma tis set in her ways..

Yet I search... for the perfect love and understanding... gentleness

Respectfully Yours

I will be with the stars in Annie's World

Tis all good here

As we know we do create our own reality




Centering but once again

As one prepares for yet another step into the development of one's character I am reminded of the slip ups, the tumbles, and the tears. I am reminded that there were always dear friends to pick up the pieces and dust one's skin off as gently as wiping a babies soft round bottom. I am reminded that the most growth happened during these times of turmoil.

And here the one (maw ah... me) lands knowing that every step has guided me to this moment of new growth. I have no clue whether this next big venture will work in the scheme of things but I do know that it might provide a place of comfort for some, that we might have some snorts and giggles together as a community, that we might sense some unity and love as we gather through drink, good chatter, and some delicious treats and that art will surround us.

Yes, soon within the next month or two we (as in the community and I) will start our new adventure together. We will piece together a shell of beauty and warmth filled with great art, good stories, creative writing, relaxing moments, time zones to honor our youth and seniors, and of course great coffee or drink.

I am scared, anxious, nervous... but when I feel very alone in this venture I am reminded that I'm not alone.. thank you to all for their offers and wise wisdom. You will be called upon when I am weak. Also my goal for the coffee shop/art gallery is not to provide competition as much as to offer help to all as we travel this leg of life during difficult times in economy and troubles. Community projects (such as our wonderful garden in Lincoln) heal and provide companionship. Working together not against each other provides joy and laughter of which we all need.

The name of this new venture: "Roasted: Delectable Art and Coffee"

We will provide a teen center two nights a week, a quiet haven for all to gather for conversation, games, reading, study areas, and quiet. We will rotate art so that new visions will appear and art classes will be offered for all. We will have art supplies available on quiet back tables for those that feel the need to create. And eventually we hope to have a wall of history on Lincoln and Montana.

I send love to all,